I was looking through old messages from years ago on this site. It's really hard to look at them and realize I haven't talked to most of the friends I had on here in years. In fact, maybe it;s not even most. Maybe it's all. I haven't talked to all of them in years.

Growing up separates people, especially when they're only connected by a site... I just wish I knew how they were doing.

They used to be the reason I came on so often. Then suddenly, or suddenly it seemed, we all had better things to do. And it seems like I'm the only one who ever came back.

I had one very important friend on here that seemed to only stay in my life for a more sensitive part in my life. I guess that's how it is, though. People come and go just as you need them. I just wish they could've stayed anyway.

I can't bring myself to open some of the messages. In fact it hurt too much to open the ones I did.

I don't really message anyone, any more. Now I only communicate on this site though comments.

I miss the personal, friendly messages.

I miss caring about people as though I really knew them.

Now I just hope that they're all doing okay. I wonder if they ever think back to remember me, their stupid friend on xanga.

I say stupid because really, I was. Most little kids are, aren't they?

While I won't open any of the messages I still have, I'll look at them gathered and smile at the memory of all the good times from them, all of the hours pointlessly, almost pointlessly, wasted just talking about nothing with my old friends. And I'll miss them. And really hope they're happy.

I guess that's it for now, just wanted to share some thoughts.

-Steph xoxo